everything is in the past and now

Well, I leave my old blog in the past with all he had related.
Finally after my breakup with my ex that was a totally dumb... I have a good year, I have a really good boyfriend who he really loves me and a boyfriend who got along well with my friends and the most important my mom.

He is just a dream, the perfect boy. He is taller than me, that it wasn't a really big deal, everyone are taller than me... well he had those amazing eyes color green, He is tanned, so beautiful, he had these arms that could restrain me and he had an amazing laught and great personality. I'm so lucky to have him.

And this summer was completely great except for one little things, like when we was in cabins whit her friends that I didn't know I was so uncomfortable the first day and then it comes the marihuana... I didn't like it and that he consumed, that anoying me I past the most of that 10 days in the cabins bad ... I think, I guess I always do, he is addicted to that thing, he couldn't say no to marihuana and it make me really sad, he always said to me that it was just a thing that happen 1 in a million times, but it wasn't.

Then it comes the cabins with my friends, what it was totally diferent, no drugs, just fun except for one of my friend who broke a window... things that happens, that days was amazing we was so close and I love to spending time with him.

And now we're here in our home, but we spent so much time fighting, that it make me doubt a little about our relationship
but is just a little think. I don't know... I'm so angry with him because he notice me the day before he left to another city to visit one of her friends... is so obously that he is going to smoke and go to a party  and I don't know he comes back in two days, he comes back the day that we're in anyversary...
And after he goes away he came to visit me and I didn't received hiim in the best spirit, god I was so angry because the day he notice me I just past a really bad day! and he didn't give me the best support, he apologise about that but I'm still resentful and I know that if he goes another place just like that I'm going to cry I know, I'm sensitive, arg stupid days... so I decided to be serious so then I wouldn't be hurt, I saw him and i was so resentful that be serious wasn't a problem I would like to be more happy and loving but I couldn't... when he left I was just about crying ... I love him and I love to have him by my side... 

Now he's away and he dind't do anything loving with me... I know that I'm his girlfriend but he have to do something to keep the love on fire... He can loose me in anytime... I think that every time that why I look pretty everytime he saw me.
I'm so sad... I just waiting for call from him...